Abandoned Blog? I Don’t Think So!

I have not fallen off the planet, I just needed to take some much-needed time for quiet introspection. I was having a really hard time and I tried to get back into blogging and YouTube but it just wasn’t happening for me.

Those of you who know me in real life know that at the end of June I actually got a job! I was thrilled. I was on cloud nine. It looked like my life was taking the turn I needed. And then about two weeks later I was fired. I was devastated. 

I don’t know why I was fired and they didn’t have to tell me because it was during my probation period but, they said it wasn’t my performance. I did very well. I have some ideas of why but nothing that I can prove. I would love to know why because if it’s something I can fix, then maybe it will help me keep a job.

Not knowing why, I felt like I didn’t have a good direction to go. From a comment made during my firing, I know it’s something in my background. I spent time researching my background and ordered a full background check. Nothing. I am a good girl. All I can tell you from that background check is that I move a lot, have kids and a husband, own land in Tennessee, and no one can spell my name correctly. 

But for bettering myself? Yea, I have no idea. That is why I decided to check out from social media (except for family) and really take a good hard look at my life. Like, I really met it face to face. I finally believe the doctors (from years ago) who told me I would never work outside my home again.  I believe them now. I didn’t want to believe them before but I fully do now. 

I am never going to be able to hold a job outside of my house so I need to focus on what I do best. As much as that hurts to say, I accept that. I don’t have to like it to accept it. So I am accepting it.

And now I will focus on what I am best at… Writing. Because I am not letting this depression get the best of me! I set goals for this month to keep me focused.

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I am back!

Goals for this month

My goals for this month are easy so I can get back into my groove.

  1. Each week I will make six posts.
  2. Each post will start with a letter of the alphabet. Nov 1 is A. Nov 2 is B. Nov 3 is C. And so on.
  3. All posts will be about positive things or will be about something that I am grateful for. 

I am hoping to get on YouTube video in each week but we’ll see how that goes for now. I am definitely working on this. 

I want to make it to where this is my full-time “job” so that I make it my habit.

I am looking forward to this. Since I won’t be getting a job… ever… I am back to blogging full-time! WOOHOO!

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Blog Update: I am off until January 2.

I may post pictures but this month is always the month where I have trouble keeping up with actual blogging. I noticed I started slipping on posting and I finally just decided… I should take some time to just enjoy the snow!

I will post pictures still. But as for actually trying to write posts, I will pick that up starting January 2… or maybe the first of the year. Let me see how I am feeling first LOL.

See you then! 

If you need to get a hold of me, you can fill out this form and I will get it within 48 hours.

 

Internet Woes Again

My internet is acting up big time! It is up for an hour or less and then gone for a few hours. We called Montana Sky and the awesome guy came out and did some troubleshooting. 

Luckily! This time the internet was misbehaving while he was here. He was able to pinpoint the issue. So he will be back to fix it.

That is one reason I haven’t posted much this week. 

I’ll let you know when it is up and running. OH and my cell phone will be active again soon so I can do anything I need online without internet. 

See you in a day or two!

My Sleep Study Results Are In!

I got a call about 10 minutes after I woke up. Man, Cabinet Peaks had perfect timing on that. It was the lady to talk about my sleep study.

She went over the results. They were read by my son’s sleep doctor so that was kind of cool. She talked about how I sleep in a recliner and all that. And then she said what I was hoping to hear…

I DO NOT have sleep apnea. Thank you!

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True Friends LOL

True Friend right there lol.

The first sleep doctor I saw, did not know what he was doing. I am sure of it. In fact, I still owe $900+ on a machine I shouldn’t have needed in the first place. I digress.

This means we are one step closer to an answer. I think the next step the sleep study for narcolepsy.

Sometimes having to change all your doctors is a good thing!

I Hate it When I Know Something And Can’t Say Anything!

Sorry for skipping posting for a couple days. I had a project that I had to get done. It’s killing me because I want to say something but I can’t! I will be able to post it in a few days though. Until then… Here is a picture of the lake…

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The Sleep Study Update…

Sorry I haven’t updated about the sleep study yet. Staying awake so long actually threw me off my schedule pretty bad. I keep thinking it is Wednesday because I lost a day somewhere. I’ll pick up on Wordless Wednesday next week.

Anyway, I did get to do the sleep study this time. When I got there, I had a one hour nap (maybe) in 28 hours somewhere in the afternoon. I couldn’t stay awake anymore. I thought I would sleep well but by the time I got to the hospital, I was wide awake and wired for sound. Continue reading