Weight Loss and Food

I was thinking about this today and thought I would post about it – so this is going to ramble a bit.

At my largest weight, I weighed 300+ pounds. I say “300+” because I had stopped weighing myself when the scale said 301. My pants were size 28…. and then those didn’t fit. I bought elastic waist pants because I didn’t want to see the waist number growing. For awhile, I wore a denim pink dress and a couple other tent-like outfits because I could not fit in my clothes anymore. Honestly, I hated myself at this point.

Then I stopped birth control (depoprevara – I gained 60 pounds in 2 months) and the weight SLOWLY started coming off. I remember when I could fit in my size 28 pants again. I was thrilled. I never thought I would be thrilled to be a size 28. LOL

And over the years my weight went up and down. In 2010, I found out all the foods I am allergic to and stopped eating them. I dropped the weight – like it fell off!

I ended up getting down to 193.6 before the jerk doctor in K-town decided to give me steroid shots. I BALLOONED! I hit 250 (or 257 – I can’t remember) and I cried. I had worked so hard to better myself only to have one asshole totally erase that in one poor decision backed by bureaucracy. I hate work comp and that doctor for that to this day.

Now, the weight is coming off again. My only struggle now is that I am never hungry. I even waited until I got hungry to eat. After DAYS, the dizziness set in and I ate even though I wasn’t hungry. I still haven’t felt hunger. I have to remember to eat. I forget some days. I stick to my old dietitian’s and nutritionist’s standards for calories.

My first thing is – get over 1000 calories a day (I was getting 548 cal a day avg when I saw her)! Or at least try. After that, I aim for between 1200 and 2000 a day. They wanted us to try for between 1500-1800 as a generic but, I would be fucking thrilled to hit 1000 calories a day for a month straight.

As for my weight, according to one place, my recommended weight is between 125 and 169. If I was at the lower end of that, I would look anorexic. MY goal (and most doctors are cool with this) is to get somewhere between 150 and 170.

When I weighed 173, I was quite happy with how I looked, how I felt, my body, etc. I wasn’t SKINNY but I wasn’t fat either. I was just right and I want to get to that again.

It will happen. I know it will. I just have to be patient and diligent… and remember to eat.

Bone Broth: My First Batch

I got so excited when I read about  Bone Broth (AKA stock). Granted, I don’t think it’s the miracle cure-all that people say it is. But, I was willing to try it since my normal state is undernourished. 

I ended up getting beef ribs because bones are harder to find than I thought. I will have to search the Amish store later. I also had friends tell me to ask at the store as they do have them. But this batch was from rib bones.

Making a batch

I started by soaking the bones in cold water with apple cider vinegar for about two hours. I forgot to set an alarm so it wasn’t exact. It may have been a little more or a little less.

I chopped up what was left of an onion and then about 4 carrots. You don’t have to do this but I like those flavors. 

Then I added the chopped veggies, the bones, and the soaking water into the large crockpot and turned it on high. I let it cook for about 10 hours on high, then turned it to low overnight.

By the next morning it had boiled down so I added more water and turned it back to high until it was a rolling boil again. Then I turned it back down to low for the rest of the day.

Trying a taste at 24 hours

I decided to try a half cup at 24 hours to see how it tasted. It was meh. Not horrible. Not delicious either. I was seriously questioning if it was worth it.

48 Hour Taste Test 

At the 48 hour mark the broth was smelling SO good! It smelled like a heavenly soup with a roasted beef undertone. I had to try it again.

The second taste test was pretty good. It had a nice flavor. I ended up adding some garlic and letting it sit in the crockpot for a couple more hours.

Straining and Storing

I don’t have a huge container so I used a jug I have to store it in. I used a colander to strain all the veggies and bones out and poured the broth into the jug.

I have been storing it in the fridge and it seems to store well. It does have some fat globs floating in there but they are fine once I heat it up.

How is it working?

I have had a cup a couple times a day for the last two days. After the garlic, it tastes MUCH better! 

I do feel more awake. Before you get too excited, “more awake” is actually, “I can play on Reddit more” as doing almost anything still takes too much energy.

I haven’t had a ton of miracle healing but being a little more alert is a nice start.

 My gut isn’t hurting like it usually does. The twisting, cramping feeling that is normal for summertime is now an annoying sensation. That is a nice step up from the pain before. 

Just for those two, I am happy. And it tastes good.

What I am doing next

Next, I will add more gelatin to my diet again. It does help with joint pain. I haven’t done this in awhile because of the cost, but I am going to just grin and bear it next month.

I am going to also try chicken bone broth next. I heard fish broth is good but I’ll just have to trust them on that one. I have never cared for fish broth.

Have you tried bone broth? Do you make your own? Share your story in the comments.

Flintstone’s Meal!

Today I slow cooked some ribs. I am planning on making bone broth since I read it’s good for a lot of things, especially malnutrition. I figured I could take the bones and make it over the next day or two (or however long it’s supposed to cook).

I also have a lot of thinking left to do. I am still exhausted a lot. I have a service dog now too! But that means I have to walk and potty him which means I am in more pain and more exhausted. I thought about working on the blog right after morning walk and breakfast (which is actually noon for me).

So I will be trying that this next week (starting tomorrow). I’ll get a picture of Jack-Jack up also. I am really excited about having him as part of our family.

Food. Calories.

I just need to vent. This is from my Sparkpeople blog.

I have been logging my food faithfully for the week. I started out horrible on my calories but finally got it up there. My goal each day is to hit 1500 calories. Here is how I did for the week.

I am thrilled that I did get over 1,000 every day. Don’t get me wrong there. I even celebrated the day I went over 1500! But I am so bummed that I can not get to 1500 every day (And I am not sucking down butter just for calories).

Like, I see so many people stressing over, “Oh man, I went this many calories over my limit.” and I am kind of envious. I wish I could go over 1500 calories. It happens like once a month. And it only happens because I eat cookies and soda for a day. And I STILL don’t get 2000, but at least I get over 1500 those days. In the last year, I went over 2,000 calories ONCE.

I wouldn’t stress about not enough calories but I gain weight when I am not getting enough. I am so frustrated.

If I eat enough to hit 1500, I start throwing up because I just can’t eat that much food. I want to! I love food! I would eat like a pig if I could. But I just can’t. It just sits in my stomach for awhile. I either don’t eat much or I end up puking it back up the next day. Neither is a good choice.

I would go to a doctor but they don’t really do anything. They say my GI is working fine. After all, those three bites of egg emptied from my stomach just fine. All eggs do. They shoot through me like you wouldn’t believe. (They put in my chart that I had toast and jelly too. Nope. Just egg.)

But I can’t eat eggs all day. Or maybe I could, but I don’t like them that much. So I am stuck trying to find the highest calorie foods to eat and hoping I can eat it.

You know what’s weird… I forgot what it’s like to feel hunger. I even tried to go without eating until I felt hungry. After, I think, three days I gave up and ate something because I was starting to get dizzy.

But, there’s nothing wrong with me. So I just have to force food through my system. Right? Right. Eat until I puke and then eat something else. Eventually something will stick.

At least with tracking my food that I eat, I can find patterns. Like, when I eat oatmeal, I get less calories that day than usual (by about 500). That is why I stopped eating oatmeal. Maybe I should start adding sugar to my coffee again. It’s empty calories but at least it’s calories.

Signing off – Trying not to puke – Going to take a walk

Mailbag! Foods to Try, Sparky’s Nest, and Blogging Schedule

Each week I get questions about things I post. If someone else is asking, I bet someone else is wondering the same thing. Here are three questions from this week.

What are good foods you have tried while on vacation?

I’ll pick two of my favorite places (Especially since I know who asked)! Both are in Imperial Beach, CA.

The Tin Fish Restaurant is at the end of a long pier and is totally worth the visit! The fish tacos are the best. Man, I miss their tacos.

The IB Forum is the most southwest bar and grill in the US and isn’t too far from The Tin Fish. It has a cool atmosphere. They have an electronic game that you can play while you are waiting for your food. You play against people all over the country. It’s pretty cool. I can’t remember my favorite main dish (it’s been YEARS) but I remember their onion rings were awesome! Their Cherry Bombs are awesome too!

I can’t find a picture of either place (I know I have them) so here is a picture of a cactus flower instead. I took it one spring while I was in San Diego.

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Where is the nest located?

Sparky’s nest is located right outside my kitchen window. I am on the second floor and take the pictures from my balcony.

Do you have a blogging schedule?

Well… sort of. Not really. Kind of. Like, I have a plan but it hardly ever plays out the way I plan it. I’ll make a longer post some time this coming month. I am not sure I am really the authority of blog planning but, I will tell you how I plan it out in a later post.

I don’t really do anything special. I just want to write and share stuff and try to stay positive and be happy and all that fun stuff.

Here is an adorable kitten… I really need to clean out my photo folders.

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