Java Asks “How Long Do You Rest Between Cleaning?”

I have a question … Let’s pretend that you are having a pretty good day not the best but pretty good. How long do you rest in between chores?

I got this text the other day and thought it would be better to go into details on the blog. I answered in text but it’s a shorter answer. Here it is:

Usually I work or clean for 10-30 minutes then rest for about an hour. Not even kidding. On a good day, I can rest for about 30 minutes.

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My longer answer is this…

When I was younger, I had this cleaning routine. My house looked GOOD! I was on top of the world. Now, not so much. I pick my battles with the house. I have levels of cleaning depending on how bad I hurt.

The Lowest Level: High Pain Day

On these days, I have a few lists I follow. Wake up routine, 420 List, and Before You Sleep.

My wake up routine is pretty simple now. I can do it on most of my horrible days. This is done after I go pee and take Jackjack outside to pee. This is done between the time I get up and 4:20 PM (the next list).

  • Get up!
    • Fold your blanket. I sleep in my recliner so I don’t make my bed. This is what I do instead. It becomes the dog/cat bed during the day. At night, they all sleep with me.
    • Feed Pets
    • Water Bowls
    • Scoop Poop (litter box). I’ll be honest, I do slack on this one. I try but some days my shoulders just kill me (have ever since Physical Therapy. I’ve never been the same).
    • Computer stuff (whatever I need to do that day)
  • Bathroom
    • Run a toilet brush around the toilet (usually done while I am in there)
    • Spray the tub if it needs it. (This literally takes one minute)
    • Wipe up your mess around the sink.
    • Empty the trash if needed. (I don’t empty the kitchen trash can though, it’s way to heavy for me.)
  • Kitchen
    • Did you eat something? (I have no appetite. I forget to eat)
    • Start dinner thawing or start it in the crock-pot. Plan what you are going to eat today.
    • Get someone to unload the dishwasher (I’ll explain later)
    • Load dishwasher.
    • Have someone start the dishwasher. (I’ll explain later)
  • Clothes
    • Did you change clothes? (Sometimes the answer is “Nope.” *checks box*)
    • Gather dirty laundry (on laundry day)
    • Look for dirty dishes and take them to the sink.
  • While you can still bend, tidy up the floor. Do it while you can! It will drive you nuts later!
  • Uncheck the 420 and before you sleep list.

420 Pain List

This list is all about pain management.

  • Have you taken your CBD oil?
  • Vape if you need it. 1 puff, wait 5 minutes. Repeat as needed.
  • Have coffee. How’s the headache?
  • Check the counter and sink.
  • Eat something.
  • Gather dishes and laundry. (This keeps me up and moving so I can’t just sit there and wallow in my own misery)

Before Bed or Sleep

This can be done from 420 on. It doesn’t matter when I do it, as long as it gets done.

  • Rotate dishes (someone empties, I load, someone starts)
  • Clean up the sink.
  • Clean the counters.
  • Set coffee pot
  • Set alarms
  • Scoop Poop
  • One Spot. (Put up shoes, purse, backpack, leash, coat, etc. Have it all in one spot so if you have to leave it is right there.)
  • Plan your meal for tomorrow (This is usually a mental thing. I just think, “bean burritos sound good” and that’s it.)
  • Uncheck the other lists
  • Go for a walk with Jackjack.

A note about the dishwasher.

Where I put (I’ll explain later) next to the dishwasher… this is the explaining part. I can either unload, load, OR start the dishwasher. I can’t do all three or I will be chair bound for days (or a week) from the pain. So, I have one kid unload, I load, and the other kid starts the dishwasher.

If we have a couple loads to catch up on, then the dishwasher stays parked in the kitchen (it’s a rolling dishwasher) and I will pile all the clean dishes on the deep freezer, load it again, and start it. Later, the kid that unloads can go through and put the pile of dishes away.

How I get shit done!

I’ll be honest, lately I haven’t done so well on this. But I am trying. Mostly, struggling. But still trying.

I do the basics first. That’s the three lists above. If that is all I can do that day, then so be it. That is all that gets done. If I can do more, then I use Motivated Moms to get me going and keep me motivated.

Frankly, four years of chronic pain gets to me sometimes. I don’t have pain pills to help the agony. I have marijuana and that is it. Some days, I push that to it’s limits.

I can’t clean like I could before. So using motivated moms makes me feel like less of a piece of crap. I feel like a failure because I struggle with my house. Having a check list that I can see that I am doing these chores and they got done… and it was EXTRA from my lists, that makes me not criticize myself so hard.

The rest breaks

I take rest breaks every 15 to 30 minutes, depends on how bad I am hurting. And then I stay put until the pain dies down some. That could take 30 minutes or it could take two hours. Depends on how horrible the pain is. 

If my pain is just out of control that day, I smoke and then take a nap. Some days, my kids know that I am going to be stuck in my chair all day. It happens. 

What is your cleaning like? Do you have to take breaks?

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Mushrooms and Vitamin D

Since I am severely Vitamin D deficient (mine was 6 the last they checked) I have tried vitamin D supplements. All of them make me sick.

  • I feel like I have the flu
  • My skin feels like it is on fire
  • My skin hurts
  • My body aches
  • My bones hurt!
  • My eyes feel like sunshine is coming out of my eyes.
  • I am so exhausted that I can’t stay upright.

But since we are left with “try mushrooms and lichen” or “get shots and dialysis”, I decided to suck it up and try my damnedest to suffer through some mushrooms charged with Vitamin D.

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I did a lot of research on this and found that if you take mushrooms (Portobello and shiitake are what I am going for) and lay them upside down in the sunshine (stems removed) they create Vitamin D. Then you eat them and VOILA Vitamin D supplement that is as natural as I can get.

One problem. Every time I eat the mushrooms, I feel like crap. Not as bad as the other supplements but I still feel ill. Compared to above:

  • My skin doesn’t burn (that’s a positive)
  • My skin doesn’t feel like it’s on fire.
  • It does itch though but very mildly.
  • My body aches but not as severe.
  • My bones do not hurt.
  • I am still exhausted but not all the time. I comes and goes in waves.
  • My eyes feel puffy but not bad.

BUT it does have a few other side effects.

  • My stomach and abdomen does this weird flip-flop thing where it feels like there are spasms running through them, like I am getting kicked in the gut, then I am hit with MASSIVE waves of nausea and dry heaving.
  • I get a fever. Usually mild. The worse was 102.4 or something close.
  • I feel like I am freezing to death.

I am debating now how much of this I can tolerate. I am still doing it a couple of times a week (because I can’t feel like shit 24/7). The symptoms last about a day. I am planning my mushroom doses with when I need to be active and marijuana is helping with most of the symptoms.

If this doesn’t bring my Vitamin D up into a better range, I am seriously going to have a sobbing break down… snot bubbles and all!

Just thought I would update since today was a mushroom day and I wasn’t able to post earlier because of it. So, about two days a week, I may skip posting. I am planning for that.

FAQ: Are You Okay? Why Are You Crying?

This frequently asked question is something I hear a lot. Like A LOT! I figured I would make a post on it and get it all off my chest for today.

Are you okay?

I will be fine. I am tough. I have been through a lot in my life. If I can survive that, I can survive anything. I always have good days. Just some of those days have moments.

I was going to put a meme here. But they are all so depressing! Holy crap! The quotes for this one are morbid.

Why are you crying?

Because I need to. It’s how I stay strong.

Because I am thinking about my hopeless future. Not trying to sound like Dotchi Downer… but I am being honest here. My future plans are bleak. I am planning on becoming homeless and living in my van. I am actually quite excited about this. Every one else, not so much.

Everyone else wants me to think positive and plan on living in a house or a mobile home or something… riiiiiight, cuz money grows on trees, guys! I kind of need to have a steady income to plan for a future doesn’t include me living in a van.

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I mean, I can plan to live in a house all I want. As soon as I don’t have an income and can’t pay rent/mortgage, I will be evicted and will be homeless. Instead of going through all that, I will happily plan to live in my van.

I cry because I just need to feel it for a moment and get it out of my system so I can keep going every day. I mean, I can only pretend that everything is fine for so long.

I cry because I am in pain. Not just sometimes. All the time. Every minute of every day. It doesn’t go away. Ever. While I can hold back the tears most of the time, there are days when the pain is a little too much to handle any more.

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I can’t live my life always high. I need to have hours each day where I can function normally and get things done. But I pay for it in severe pain. Even crocheting sends me into tears.

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I have heard it all too.

“Exercise will help.” I can do light exercise. Beyond that, I would just hurt myself to the point I can’t move for days without bursting into tears from the pain.

“You should move to somewhere you can get a job.” I have applied for jobs all over the place for the last four years. Every week I search for jobs I can do. I send out applications. I send out resumes. Moving is not going to help me get a job when no one will hire me.

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“You should do something from home.” I am trying that. But I am finding that any crafts I make at home, I cannot sell for a price that will help me pay the bills. Here is an example: On a GOOD week, I can make four bags a week. In person, no one wants to pay over $25.

That’s $100 a week, IF I could continue making that many a week, I never had bad weeks, and I am able to sell every single bag I make. That covers rent. What am I supposed to do for electric? Internet (to sell some online for a little more)? And every medical bill that I simply can’t pay?

“You should apply for disability.” Been there. Done that. Have you actually tried that? No wonder so many people are homeless with disabilities. I paid into the system for years and I get NOTHING!

There are plenty of people I know who need it and do get it. But I also know people who cannot work and can’t get it. I have watched people become homeless in the process… which is where I am heading… because it’s impossible to get disability. And don’t get me started on the judge in my case!

And every other comment I keep hearing doesn’t really help either. You know what helps? Chocolate. And coffee. Or Chocolate coffee. I could live off those. Or, you know, hire me!

In case you want to hire me, here is what I can do/ cannot do:

This is not the complete list. I have to end the post eventually.

  • I can lift between 8 and 10 pounds… on a good day. Sometimes I can lift 12 pounds. It just depends on how many days I have to recover.
  • I can stand for about 30 minutes. Sometimes. Not always. But I am cool with bar stools also. And I have Lidoderm patches that help.
  • I can sit upright for about 20-30 minutes. Most of the time. Then I have to lay down for a while to calm the pain.
  • I can type. I don’t know my typing speed but most everyone I know is impressed with it. So it’s probably faster than normal.
  • I love blogging! I would blog more but I have been focusing on making things to sell and practicing other computer skills that might help me.
  • I love making memes! I use them because they make me smile and it’s easier than walking around looking for a good picture or searching through the billions of pictures I have on my computer for the right one.
  • I love photography! My camera is dying a slow death so I haven’t been taking a lot of pictures lately. But I LOVE photos!
  • I can crop, re-size, airbrush, and do other edits to photos. I am still learning some of the cooler things.

I can’t really do much most days. If I crochet, I can’t do anything else or it’s just too much.

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I am better at computer work than I am at anything else if I have to be quite honest.

If you don’t hire me…

If you can’t hire me, that’s okay… I wouldn’t hire me for most jobs either. BUT, if you do hire me, I am going to throw myself into the work and do it as well as I can and try to do the best I can!

But if you aren’t going to hire me… Don’t tell me how to live my life either. I don’t need antidepressants. That’s just another bill I can’t afford. I don’t need to move because I already applied elsewhere. No one is hiring me.

If you aren’t going to hire me, please tell me so I can cry and move on to something else. Making me wait and figure it out myself is a waste of my time.

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If I am crying, I am firmly planted in reality that day. Sometimes I just need to face the cold, harsh reality of shitty life so I can go back to hoping and searching for a way to survive. Sometimes I just need to feel the pain so I can be optimistic again.

I am allowed to cry without being shot in the ass with a tranquilizer dart. Their called emotions. They are totally normal. I don’t need people telling me what to do, I need coffee, a bag of chocolate, a date with Netflix, and a good cry. It gives me a mental vacation. Sometimes, that is all I really need.

Some days, I need to relieve the emotional pain so I can live every day with the physical pain and still force myself to smile. You can add that to my list of talents.

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WordPress Changed, Trying Razors, and Physical Therapy!

WordPress Change!

I haven’t been in a great mood lately. Mostly sleepy and hurting pretty bad. That’s why I haven’t been on here much. But I do plan on getting on here more and typing on here and my other blog. Just a couple of days a week. I want to ease into it. When I logged on today, WordPress has changed! WOW! I kind of like it. It’s sleek and nice. Give me a minute while I admire the page.

Updated: Apparently that slick new layout works only when you start a new post from your “my blogs” page. I went to the dashboard to this blog and opened the post from there so I could finish it and it opened in the regular page. I am cool with both.

Trying Razors.

I was watching Philip DeFranco (link will open in a new window) and he always has some blurb about some product that he uses and then shares a link for you to check it out. If something looks interesting, I check it out. Well, today he had the link to a blade place called Dollar Shave Club. I have heard about them before but I decided to check them out for myself.

I ordered the $1 “Humble Twin” to try. It’s $2 shipping and handling which brings my 5 razors to $3. Considering that I live in an area where razors are expensive and the price keeps going up, I decided to try the Dollar Shave Club. I recently paid $11 for blades. And by “recently”, I mean like a year ago because I can’t afford $15 (the price now) for razor blades.  Continue reading

New Neighbors, Pain Relief, and Trying to Get Motivated.

I haven’t posted lately because my meds have me knocked out. But, with new meds comes relief from the ever grinding, relentless pain. Remember when I posted about giving my pain a number? Well, I can honestly say that this makes it easier to pick a number. I am not in agonizing pain all day and my mood is improving dramatically because of it. I able to load the whole dishwasher, do some laundry (a light load), fold clothes, clean the bathroom, tidy the house a little… you know, feel useful and like I am doing something. I didn’t complete everything all in one round but hey, anything is better than sitting and playing online all day!

Now that I am on the right meds (Gabapentin, 800 mg of ibuprofen, and Methocarbomal) I can totally tell the nerve pain from the muscle spasm pain and arthritis pain. VERY different. Continue reading

Relief! Sweet Relief!

I went to the doctor yesterday because my back was KILLING me. He checked me over, said he is sure I am having a disc issue in my upper back. Oh goody. My upper back is going to be just as bad as my lower back. Yea. He ordered X-rays since my insurance won’t pay for an MRI (which is what I need) unless I get X-rays first. He also told me that he hurt his neck last year and ended up having surgery. He knows what I am going through.

He told me they usually treat this with Prednisone (a no-no for me) and some other meds. I totally wasn’t fully listening at this point. He said surgery and my brain shut off. But he started me on Gabapentin, Robaxin, and 800 mg of ibuprofen. Then I went to get my X-rays and go home.

I decided to try the Robaxin first and give it a whirl for a couple of days then try out the Gabapentin if all went well. I know better than to try two new medications at the same time. Robaxin seemed like it would be promising and so that was the one I chose. I know I respond well to muscle relaxers.

Here is how it went.

I opened the bottle and gawked at the size of the pill. It is huge! Not as huge as the ibuprofen, but not small at all. I crushed both of them with my pill crusher, dumped them on the spoon, added a bit of coffee and choked them down. NASTY taste! Worst medicine to have to crush and swallow! Ew!

Then I sat and chilled waiting for it to kick in. I ended up feeling a weird warming sensation and the feeling of just turning into Jell-O. The whole idea that I was finally at a point where I could smile because the pain didn’t put me in tears was quite nice. I ended up laying down after I ate something and loaded the dishwasher. I could still feel the pain, but I wasn’t completely chair bound and crying from it. I laid on the hide-a-bed and had planned to just chill for a bit. Hours later, I woke up still on the hide-a-bed, still in the same position, and drooling all over the pillow.

I slept so well I didn’t want to move when I woke up. Parts of me were numb and I couldn’t really feel my abdomen. My legs felt like someone had poured them onto the bed. I was awake but it took a few minutes to fully wake up. I was able to move without doing Lamaze breathing. I managed to get up and move about. I think I was just so exhausted from poor sleep with so much pain that I slept like I was in a coma. It was a nice change. I felt rested (once I got moving) and I wasn’t in agony.

So far, no problems for me. I have a weird feeling of warmness throughout my body, but I’ll take that to sharp, shooting pains.

If all goes well, I will try the Gabapentin on Thursday.

Oh My Pain! Does It Ever Stop?

I thought I would take a moment and post a rambling about pain. I think the last few days has been horrible because my pain levels are somewhere between “Owie” and “EFFING SHOOT ME!” Right now, my lower back and hips feel like they are on fire with a sharp, piercing pain. My upper back still hurts just not as bad today. Of course, I took muscle relaxers so I will be fine eventually.

Just when I thought the pain was subsiding, I started sneezing from outdoor allergies. Man, that was something else. Usually it’s one or two, sometimes three, sneezes. This last set LMAO, it was like my brains were trying to escape. My sinuses actually hurt a little from it. But this pain I can handle. It’s more annoying than anything.

But sitting here, it started me thinking. Why am I in so much pain? I mean, I know that I hurt a lot, but it seems like lately, it is full body pain. Head to toe, feels like I got hit by a Mack Truck. My spinal bones feel like they are breaking, my muscles feel like they are burning, I can’t do anything without making the pain worse (and I mean ANYTHING) and I feel like my body is revolting against me.

Then I started thinking about it… Oh yea, it’s summer! No wonder I hurt so bad! But still, I shouldn’t hurt like this. I am wondering if it is linked to my vitamin D deficiency. I am off to research, because seriously, what else am I going to do?

And I decided to start a line of children’s books! Just a little something to keep me occupied. I’ll post more later.